i decided this prof is too mesed up, so checke out at at [link]
kay?

Whtever. Y'know what? I hate my cousin. I think she's trying to be me. This is too fucked up. She has no personality at all. all she can do is bash people. I'm famous because of her. (Well, kind of) For being me. This is so messed up.

I suck at flash. I'm in computer class right now. And everything I do gets all messed. And Kara keeps saying awesome. Kara... AWESOME IS MY WORD!!!!! And Kara, another thing... do not tell me I can do it. I know I can. I'm just too effed up and lazy(yes kara, lazy) to do it.

LOL. Kara's beside me! Don't ever view her. Okay. She's RenKa002. DO NOT VIEW HER!!!

Just kidding.

Last night, I had the worst panic attack ever. Something felt like it wanted to take over my body, so I went out of my room. It was really freaky. Then I called up a friend cuz it was getting worse and worse. It was like this sinking feeling taking over your whole body. I was really scared. Then I had this impulse that I had to get out or else I was gonna go insane. Then it just started to get worse. I was nauseous and shivering. Good thing they opened up the gates. Cuz it was suffocating. Then my grandmother comes into the picture. I just started crying so hard. She was treating me like I was insane. Good thing she calmed down. But my aunt- she started yelling at me. I can understand. I just don't get why she'd do that. I needed someone to comfort me, not make me feel worse about everything. Anyways, I had to get out of that house. Luckily, my mom fetched me. And I was still crying. I was crying for like, 2 hours straight. So maybe today, I could get some mental help. I don't care what they think. That panic attack was really horrifying. Its still haunting me. And I don't think I'll be going home soon either. Whatever. Save me. I don't want to go through it again. If I had to, I'd rather die.

Fake eyelashes are lie the hardest thing to put on. But they're awesome anyways. Like whatever. I need fake nails